Gusto kong maiyak pero di ko magawa

My frustrations officially piled up as of today. Frustrations triggered by work, frustrations triggering my personal life.

‘Pag ganito ang nangyayari, iisipin mo na lang na everything’s gonna be alright. Positive thinking, ‘ika nga, Pero dude, antagal ng ganito. Same same lang. I can’t say I didn’t try.

Nakakasawa.

Nakakaiyak.

In times like this, parang ang sarap lumayas, tumakas. Para san pa ang Camiguin di ba?

Pati pagtulog apektado. Nagigising ako sa madaling araw, nag-iisip ng magandang approach para sa mga problema. Pathetic. Mas pathetic pa kesa me nakikita kang multo sa gabi at ayaw nya magpatulog.

I need my lucky stars. I have big problems but I know I have a bigger God.

Please, make this over soon. Or let Camiguin happen sooner.

I need help.

This time, this place. Misused, mistakes. Too long, too late. Who was I to make you wait? Just one chance, just one breath, just in case there’s just one left. ‘Cause you know, you know, you know that I love you. I have loved you all along and I miss you. Been far away for far too long. I keep dreaming you’ll be with me and you’ll never go. Stop breathing if I don’t see you anymore. On my knees, I’ll ask. Last chance for one last dance. ‘Cause with you, I’d withstand all of hell to hold your hand. I’d give it all,I’d give for us. Give anything but I won’t give up. I wanted, I wanted you to stay. ‘Cause I needed, I need to hear you say that I love you. I have loved you all along and I forgive you for being away for far too long. So keep breathing ‘cause I’m not leaving. Hold on to me and never let me go. (FarAway, Nickelback)