"Grown-ups never understand anything for themselves, and it is tiresome for children to be always and forever explaining things to them." -- Antoine de Saint-Exupery (The Little Prince)
Thursday, March 31, 2005
Artik: Confessions of a Two-Timer
Ganitong-ganito ang epekto mo sakin. Sa umpisa, ilag pa ako. Mataas ka kasi, mahirap abutin. Pero minsang nagkasama tayo, okey ka lang pala. Patago at paminsan-minsan lang. Alam ko namang ‘di ka makakabuti sa akin.
Ang sarap mo pala kasama. Nawawala ang init ng ulo ko. ‘Pag highblood na ako sa opis. Pag walang magawa. ‘Pag may nag-aya ng meryenda. Kahit walang mapag-usapan, basta kasama ka, okey na. Natutuwa ako pag nakikita kita. ‘Pag maraming tao ang nakapalibot sa’yo. Nagiging close nga kaming magkakaibigan dahil saýo. Parang common ground ka namin. Dati, lumabas ako ng Pinas, hinanap-hanap kita. Namiss kita talaga. Minsan dinadayo pa kita. Kahit gabing-gabi na. Nakatulugan pa nga kita isang beses. Talagang ayaw ko lumayo sa tabi mo.
Nakakakunsensya rin kahit papano. Kasi naman may mas nauna na akong nagustuhan kesa saýo. Sýa talaga yung mas bagay sa personalidad ko. Tsaka kahit saan, andyan lang sýa. Di mahirap hagilapin. Maaasahan.
Pero magkaiba kayo ng epekto. Kung sýa refreshing, ikaw calming. Ironic nga kasi you were never created for the purpose of calming. Hula ko pa, you were really designed to be addictive…to be my passion and my frustration.
Sana maranasan ko na maging akin ka talaga. Yun bang kahit anong oras na gustuhin ko, abot-kamay ka lang. Kaso, hindi talaga pwede. Anong gagawin ko sa kanya? Hindi naman kayo pwedeng pagsabayin. Kalokohan yon. At iisipin ng mga tao na gahaman ako.
Kaya nakapagpasya na ako. I will always love my (more ice) iced tea. But I will always long for you, my original Starbucks Rhumba.
Wednesday, March 30, 2005
Smile
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Sometimes I sit at home and wonder how it’d be if he had loved me, truly loved me
I learned awhile ago the kind of thing that never happens for me
and so I go around and just pretend
love is not for me
I play the circus clown around my friends
make 'em laugh and they won’t see
that you never let them see a sweat
don’t want them to think the pain runs deep
Lord knows its killing me..
So I put on my make up
Put a smile on my face
and if anyone asks me, everything is okay
I’m laughing cuz no one knows the joke is on me
cuz I’m dying inside with my pride
and the smile on face, on my face singing lalala
sometimes I sit at home by the phone hoping he might call me but he don’t call me
but then I realized dreams come true aren’t for girls like me...not like me
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It’s not an easy (thing to do)
sometimes it’s hard to (face the truth)
it’s not the life that I would choose
but what else can I do if he dont love me, no
if he dont want me...
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blue pats herself on the back... everything is ok...
Artik: 10 ways to get the attention of your CRUSH
You: Hi, team mate tayo sa blah blah blah di ba? ikaw si...?
Crush: uhm...Fabio.
9. Whenever you see him, consciously call him by other name.
You: Brando! Dito ka rin pala sa basement nagla-lunch?
8. Stare at him and when he notice you, say something.
You: Anong tinitingin-tingin mo dyan?!
7. Check if you have something in common.
Crush: I like to watch movies
You: Ay ako rin! (with matching pungay of the eyes)
Crush: Lalo na yung classics...
You: Ay pareho talaga tayo! 1pm sa Channel 9 di ba? Sampaguita Pictures rockkk! Yo yo yo!!!
6. Look him up and add him on Friendster. Write a catchy introductory note.
You: Huy Celso, andito ka rin pala. So nice of you to drop by. Friendster na tayo ha!
5. Be thoughtful.
You: Punta ka ng CR Gardo? Eto tissue o. 3-Ply yan.
4. Give him the impression that you're a homey girl.
You: Shempre naman i know how to cook. My specialty is Sinigang with Tocino.
3. Drop a hint that you're available.
You: Huy alam mo me ticket ako for two sa concert ni Sandara. Kaso wala akong kasama e. Samahan mo ko. Papakainin kita after concert.
2. Show him that you care.
You: Absent si Wildo =( me Diarrhea *sigh* magpadala naman tayo ng flowers opismates.
1. Create a blog. Write something about your crush.
You: Dear blog, this is a wonderful day. Baldo is surely reading this...
Tuesday, March 29, 2005
random towts 2
no more pakulo ng tubig. hehe. i admit, im guilty. im used to having hot water for shower. not anymore.
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i feel helpless and useless @ work. i have to bug a lot of people just to finish a simple job. dang. makes me think of future (which i have been deliberately ignoring for the longest time). am i to stay? do i need to poke myself and get-up?
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i have been eyeing on my champorado since this morning. it sits still on my table. begging to be tasted. i can smell my tuyo. arghh! my stomach is grumbling. have to finish this patch...have to send it today. later champ, i'll eat you with full satisfaction.
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today, i miss eating squidballs at the side of Ayala with my snack buddies. i miss the tamis-anghang sauce. i miss the nonsense talks.
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our company is having free movie (yahu!). Miss Congeniality2. Kaso di ako kasama. have to finish this patch...have to send it today (talk about wrong timing)
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congrats chuy, for tomorrow. keep your heart intact :)
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i was able to upload 3 songs in this blog. 3 songs!!!! para lang... sekwet. hehe.
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i wonder where fatso is. probably sleepin'. nah. probably munchin' food.
Monday, March 28, 2005
write-your-own-caption contest
question and answer portion....
ha? hindi ko rin alam.. palaging ano?
"ngayon ko lang na-realize..mahal pala kita"
sana di mo na lang narealize, shoo!
"iwanan mo na sya. mas magiging masaya ka sa piling ko.."
wanna bet? pag talo ka, patattoo ka ng Loser sa noo ;-)
"smile ka nga... cute mo kapag naka smile e.."
patawa. alam ko kung kelan ako cute at yon eh pag nakaganto ako --> =P
"gawin mo naman yung homework ko sa math"
letch...papagawa ka lang, math pa?
"sino crush mo?"
86 sila. isa-isahin ko?
"i am so blessed to have someone like you"
yaaaan hehehe. thank you.
"why does monday come before tuesday?"
huh? me difference ba yon? pareho lang yon na me pasok e.
"may ticket ako sa concert ng linkin park, wanna watch?"
not my type of music. sorry pre.
"isa ka sa mga pinakaspecial na tao sa buhay ko..alam mo ba yun?"
hmm. cge balitaan mo na lang ako pag wala na ako sa list =D
"nahuhulog na ata ako sayo.."
waaaaaaaag. delikadoooo.... =))
"i can't smile without you.."
hangkorni naman. sabay *rolleyes*
"thank you sa lahat lahat. pero... hindi ka siya.."
oo nga. buti na lang.
"wala lang"
eh di wala.
"ano cell number mo?"
sino nagpapatanong? ah ikaw ba? wala e. hehe
"can i have this dance?"
ehem. d ako marunong e. kaw na lang. solo sa dance floor.
"pwede ba manligaw?"
sorry im tekken.
"mahal ko pa din sya hangang ngayon.."
good for you. alam ba nya?
"you were everything, everything that i wanted"
baket past tense?? gawin mong present yan! ngayon diiiiin!!!!
"kelan mo ba ako sasagutin?"
tinatanong pa ba yan? kiss na lang hehehe.
All about songs
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1. fave song at the moment
Spongecola's KLSP
2. LSS (last song syndrome)
Nina's live version of Love Moves (In Mysterious Ways)
3. song(s) that reminds you of your bestfriends
Reo Speedwagon's In My Dreams
4. song that just makes you wanna dance
R Kelly's Thoia Thoing
B2K feat. P. Diddy - Bump Bump Bump
5. cheesiest love song
Diana Ross - Endless Love
6. song that you want to revive if ever you're a singer
I'd Still Say Yes
7. old song (circa50-70's) that you really like
The Wonders - That Thing You Do
8. your fave song that when your friends hear it, they think of you..
Fallin' siguro.
10. song that reminds you of the person you like/love
Jesse Powell - You're The One I Love
11. fave acoustic song
Avril Lavigne - Why
Alisson Krauss - Baby Now That I Found You
12. fave remake
The Braxton - I'd Still Say Yes
Boyz II Men - I Miss You
13. hatest remake
Claudine Barreto's Got To Believe
14. your videoke song
Crazy For You tsaka Love Me Like The First Time nyuknyuk
15. fave song from a movie
Love & Basketball Movie - This Woman's Work (Maxwell)
16. fave harana song
Parokya ni Edgar's Your Song
17. fave rock songs
The Calling - Stigmatized (rock ba to? hehe)
18. fave pop song
Maroon 5 - She Will Be Loved
19. fave theme song from a cartoon
Don't Say You Love me ng M2M (Pokemon)
20. fave teleserye theme song
Yung sa Meteor Garden shempre tsaka Stairway to Heaven bwahaha
21. fave "sawi" song
Mariah Carey - Breakdown
Marc Dorsey - Crave
Tamia - Smile
22. fave non-sense song
Tony-tony boboni hehe joke lang.Tuesday Vargas - Babae Po Ako
23. song that you dedicate to yourself
Freestyle - Lying to Myself
24. song that you wish you've written
Freestyle - Sayo
Luke Mejares - If You Want To Be Mine
25. Song na una mong narinig at nagustuhan
LA Lopez look alike - Let Me Be The One.
fun in the sun
Easter Sunday. At passenger's seat.
merengge. lala (yung chocolate), pringles. la-la (yung crackers), oishi spicy. yema. orange juice. iced tea. coke. at sa wakas. inihaw na isda.
sorry wala akong maayos na kwento.
some things are better kept to ourselves to protect it's original beauty.
la lang. hehe. the picture speaks for itself naman d ba?
* fun in the sun *
Wednesday, March 23, 2005
Me and My Bilog
This is probably my first and last letter to you.
When mom told me that your mother is carrying you, i somehow felt sad. pero andyan na eh. tanggapin na lang.
one day, mom visited me and while we were shopping, nag-toy section kami. what for? para raw sayo. hay naku. napaka-espesyal naman ng batang yan!
i went home. at last i saw you. ewwww ang panget mo. nagbabalat pa muka mo. eww talaga. tapos nagkasakit ako, sabi ako daw muna magbantay sa'yo. Huh? eh anliit-liit mo. para kang chonggo na walang buto. pinatong ka sa lap ko. for a 3-month-old kid, antibay ng leeg mo ha. at ang ingay mo. pinasakan ka tuloy ng saging ni mami. lalo kang nagmukang chonggo.
simula non, binubulabog mo na bawat sabado ko. kesehodang puyat ako, iiwanan ka sa kwarto ko. Buti na lang bumagay ka sa mga bedsheets ko na makulay. nakakaaliw ka rin pala. di ba sasali dapat tayo sa halloween costume contest non? either si smeagol ka (susuotan lang ng bahag) or yung bata sa Ju-On the grudge (pupulbusan lang yung mukha). Walang kahirap-hirap sa costume mo. Panalo sana tayo. kaso di ka pa nakakalakad ng derecho noon.
ngayon 1.5 yrs old ka na, hindi na ganon kalaki ang mata mo. inaagaw mo na yung mic pag nagvivideoke ako. inaagaw mo yung cell pag me kausap ako. inaagaw mo iced tea ko. ninanakaw mo Big250 ko. Nung nanood tayo ng laban ni Pacquiao, sinampal mo ako 3x habang nakatingin sa TV. pero pag umiiyak ka, yumayakap ka sakin. at ako na ang hinihila mo ngayon. close na nga tayo.
sana paglaki mo bilog, wag ka barumbado. wag mo bibigyan ng sakit ng ulo ang mama mo. ampayat na non e. mas payat pa sa'kin. tsaka andami nagmamahal sa'yo. nagpapanic buong bahay pag nawawala ka o pag umiiyak ka. paglaki mo, wag mo kakalimutan yon. sori nga pala naiwan kita dati sa kwarto na nakabukas yung erkon. ayaw mo pa naman mag-kumot. ginaw na ginaw ka tuloy, wala ka naman nagawa kundi umiyak. paglaki mo, bawian mo na lang ako ha. pero habang bubwit ka pa, yakap ka lang muna kay tita...
* bilog and the famous banana *
Tuesday, March 22, 2005
Mga walang kwentang tanong
dahil wala akong maisip na makabuluhan, mangongopya na lang ako sa friendster. walang magrereak!
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What do you like to do when you’re depressed?
Talk to someone or be somewhere where time slowly pass by.
What do you want to name your future child?
For girls, yung mga sound like boy’s name (alex, joey, chris, etc)
For boys, joshua siguro?
What makes u cry?
ask en (mga walang kwentang-movies hahaha) tsaka ask gfs (mga cards at senti msgs)
What's your midnight snack?
iced tea & cake
What do you think of abortion?
pm me i’ll tell you…
What's one thing you love about your country?
Mataas yung tolerance sa lahat ng bagay
Describe your mom...
All-around. Everybody looks up to her and respects her.
Some of the most meaningful things said to you?
"Mahal na mahal kita ".
Number of overnights you've gone to?
Yung sa bahay lang nila apol ang natatandaan ko tsaka one time kina rose (me project kasi, natulog lang naman ako)
Bible quote you'll never forget?
"Perfect love drives away fear for fear has to do with punishment. He who fears does not know perfect love. "(di ko na matandaan kung san mahahagilap yan)
Best gift you have ever received?
Mababaw ako eh, rose lang masaya na aku hehe
Look around. What caught your eye?
Office clock. 530 na pala! Deym.
Your wish when you last blew a birthday candle?
di ko na matandaan =(
Close your eyes for a few seconds. What did you see?
Fatso hehehe
Do you like buying branded clothes?
madalang, can’t afford eh hehe
Do you know your bestfriend's friendster password?
nope, ano ko…stalker?
Do you follow fashion trends?
sadly, no
Have you ever ran away?
There wasn’t any need for me to.
Have you ever literally been a shoulder to cry on?
errr, can’t remember .
Have you ever intentionally ignored someone? For how long?
Hmm oo. For as long as i can. Kaso kaopismate ko, kaya kinakausap pa rin kahit ayaw ku hmf!
Have you ever went on a romantic date?
Define romantic.
Have you ever received a loveletter?
Ang korni naman nitu! hiskul days pa un eh.
When was the first time?
Hiskul nga d ko alam baka 2nd, 3rd, or 4th year! Hehe
Have you ever written a love letter? When was the first time?
Baka 2nd, 3rd, or 4th year din! Hehe
Do you think you'll ever get cancer?
oo.
If you do get cancer and have about a month to live, what would you do?
Gagawa ng last testament?! Magdodonate ng mga pwedeng i-donate. Mangingidnap. Tsaka papakabait na po.
If you could spend a week anywhere, where would you go?
Dream vacation sa hongkong, thailand, paris, or new york. Pede ba don? Libre naman mangarap di ba?
What do you think of your past?
I’m such a loser nyahahaha
Where do you usually go shopping?
kamiseta, bayo, pink soda
How much did you spend yesterday?
hay naku, naiwan ko atm ko kaya nangutang pa ako ng pamasahe hahaha (100 bucks)
How many of your close relatives are living abroad? Where?
Why do u wanna know? Stalker ka rin?!
Motto/s in life?
Dalawa ang sinusunod ko:
Kung gusto, me paraan. Kung ayaw, me dahilan. (proven)
Kung ayaw mo gawin sayo, wag mo gawin sa iba. (pero gagawin pa rin sa’yo ng iba...mga hayuf hehe)
Monday, March 21, 2005
random towts
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habang tumagatal, lumalala, laging nagwawala.
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di gumana yung DVD na regalo ni Chuy: Drive Me Crazy. Sayang na-excite pa naman ako. Wrong region daw. Di bale baka gumana sa Enzer, galing din naman ng SG yun. Maganda pala yung Stepford Wives. Yun na lang pinanood ko. Walang kupas si Nicole Kidman.
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Speaking of movies, the only time I had a crush on Brad Pitt was in Meet Joe Black, Orlando Bloom as Legolas in LOTR, Joshua Hartnett in Pearl Harbor. Sa ibang movies, di ko na sila crush. Ba't kaya? Sayang hehe.
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"Holy" Week.
Start na ng Holy Week. Ramdam na ramdam na dito sa opis. Wala na akong katabi e. Nag-leave na lahat. Di ko alam kung san-san nagpunta 'tong mga 'to. Sana makaalala magpasalubong.
Di ko alam kung matatawa o maiinis ako sa ilang mga Noypi. Pag tinatanong mo san sila magho-holy week: boracay, baguio, sagada, hongkong, bohol, mercury, venus, mars, jupiter, saturn, uranus, neptune, pluto etc. Itatanong mo bakit doon, sabi para magmuni-muni. Phuleeeez. Pwede namang maging honest. Magbabakasyon. Tapos. Muni-muni? Sa paligid ng mga hunks or bebot na naka-2 piece? Duuuuuuuuuuhhhk (sabi nga ni Rhonna).
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salamat SoC sa go nuts donuts. pasensya na sa ingay. sa susunod opismates, sana wag na tayo maexcite sa mga libreng pagkain. umiinit ulo namin ni Rhonna e (kami kasi yung napagkamalang cause of mass hysteria) nyahahaha
Sunday, March 20, 2005
Black and Blue
Adik Sa'yo
The first thing that would come to eveyone's mind is that I may have eating disorder. My snack buddies can come to my rescue. If there's no way I could get away from my computer, there's always stack of foods in and around my desk. No, I refuse this to be the reason.
I hear you say "What about vitamins?" I have a bottle of Clusivol and Revicon. Also in my desk. What else is on my desk, you may ask? I have my slyvester mug, a starbucks tumbler, 2 tissueholders, 2 pens, 2 calendars, 2 magnets, picture frame, 2 cellphones, and a hua ze lei pic. (Susme! bat dala-dalawa ang gamit sa desk ko?! Ngayon ko lang 'to napansin pramis.)
I can't be losing sleep over this, no I can't... sabi nga ng Lifehouse. Ayon...sakto. My sleeping time lately is past 12am. Kasalanan 'to ni Cholo at Jodie. Langit ka at lupa ako. Kelangan ko nang magbagong-buhay. Puyat/Payat. Sawa na ako. 82 lbs? Lord, kahit 100 lbs lang po. Matahimik lang si Jam at RB. Pleeease *insert pa-cute smiley here*
Friday, March 18, 2005
waiting or looking?
So it was 9am already(at 9am din ang pasok ko, hanep talaga. Madodoble sabon ko ngayon) And I was thinking of the same thing that me and my friend would eventually talk about later that afternoon.
Sad daw sya dahil sawa na daw sya mag-isa (sabi ko naman sangkatutak yung nasa paligid nya, pansinin lang nya). Samantalang yung iba naman, pagod na sa problema sa lovelife nila. Ever wonder how much amount of time we dedicate to our lovelife aspect when we are still single? Araw-araw ng buhay mo, kesehodang attached or single ka, mabubulabog ang utak mo kakaisip tungkol sa lablayp mo.
Eh ba't nga ba ganon? Kelangan ba natin ng lovelife? Pag wala, hinahanap mo. Pag naryan naman, pinoproblema mo. Can a non-celibate person live without it? Are you waiting or are you looking for love?
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Magpapakain pala yung mga napromote mamaya. Hehe. Makapag-reserve nga ng 5 pichi-pichi.
Thursday, March 17, 2005
Una by Spongecola
dumadalas ang minsan
ika'y naryan, abot tanaw
kahit walang dahilan
maiiwasan ba
ang bawat sandaling ika'y laman ng isip ko
(maiiwasan bang) ngayo'y lilipas ng hindi kita nasisilayan
(magkamali sa'yo) nararapat bang pigilan ang damdamin na
(maiiwasan bang) lalong mahulog sa iyo
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uwi na ako. hihi natapos ko yung error na akala ko 10yrs bago ko masolb.
kulang lang pala ng inspirasyon.
sana, pwede ko isigaw yung nakabold letters sa mukha ng isang tao dyan... (pustahan, tatanungin na naman ako kung sino daw. FISHIIIIING! MANHID!!!!!!) harharhar
tanong part 2
pipilitin mo pa rin?
kung ang turing sa'yo
kaibigan lang
ipagsisiksikan mo pa rin?
kung ayaw na sa'yo
at may nahanap nang iba
hahabulin mo pa rin?
kung nasasakal na't nagpupumiglas
hahawakan mo pa rin?
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m sippin' my favorite frap rhumba (naks plugging!) while thinking of these questions. kung ikaw ang tatanungin, anong sagot mo?? esep-esep!
ilang kape ba naman ang kelangan ko inumin ngayon para magising naman ako?! waaa antok na antok ako. yung part 1 nito saka ko na lang ipopost (hehe nauna pa yung part 2)
Assurance Issue
One thing that constantly bugs me is the assurance issue. And so I post the question to everyone reading this. Can you actually give assurance to your partner that you will love him/her for the rest of your life? as in?? pramis?
Most of the people I've asked say Op Kors! (the corrs!) Wow naman, buti pa sila.
Ironic how i can usually play with words but when it comes to describing that L feeling, Im dumb. The more i love, the more it gets harder to talk about it. so pano na yan? di ba sa kasal may vows-vows ek ek sa harap ng madlang people? Uh oh *insert rolleyes smiley here*
So Many Questions...
So much for the intro...the first song of their 2nd set was So Many Questions. This is my all-time favorite Side A song. Nakakainis kasi sa dinami-dami ng taong nandon, kelangan ko bang ma-teary eyed? Nakakahiya di ba? Di ko alam kung baket. And so the song goes on "so many questions but the answers are so few. all i really know is i love you..." Ay grabe. Wish ko lang sabihin din sa'kin yon one day. My favorite line is this: Seems the only time I see her near is when I close my eyes. Should I keep it that way? The only way I could make her stay.
Um, sapul! Nyahaha. Im such a sucker for romance.
* the Side B of Side A *
Wednesday, March 16, 2005
birthday blues
i was really hoping for the kind of birthday na me spaghetti and cake. when your visitors would stay longer and just chill. it was what i had when i was a child. and i felt like reminiscing. my friends are special enough to understand. so im thankful for their support. sabi nga ni Ms Theresa (ung teacher namin sa Pascal) nung debut ko 8 yrs ago , "remember these people present here, they are here because they are your true friends"... and so i will.
* faraway look, for a change *
ps: andami ko gifts hehe para ulit akong bata. tsaka andami nag-greet thru txts & email. maraming-maraming salamat. naka-save yung greetings nila (senti-mode?) kaya puno na ung inbox ko arghhh!
ps2: tinulungan ako ng snack buddy ko dalhin yung gifts sa kotse, ambait. salamat. u know who u are.
Firsts...
asan na ba yung list of firsts na nakapost lagi sa bulletin board ng friendster? kung kelan naman kelangan, saka nawawala (sounds family?). enaku, maya ko na hagilapin. di ko pa masabi kung kelangan ko nga ba magbunyi dahil me blog na ako hehe. pag me copy kayo, pahingi naman ako!